Tuesday, September 16, 2008

You may think I am crazy.....

But, I have found myself thinking lately about our next child. I know, it's really early. BUT adoption takes a long time. For years I have been driven to adopt, and I know in my heart a little girl is waiting for me in Africa. I think about her often, has she been born yet? Is she warm, dry and safe? How will we feel once we actually see her? I love knowing that when we move again and get settled I can start up the process again and finally bring our little girl home. Will can know that you don't have to be born into this family to be loved and accepted into it, and Jason and I can give birth to a child from our hearts instead of our bodies. I love thinking about the challenges that will be coming our way, and all the joy we have yet to experience. The DVD's that come from the orphanages in Ethiopia are filled with such bright, beautiful kids just looking for someone to give them a chance. There is one sibling group that will always haunt me, and recently I found out that they got a home all together in Western Washington. I was so glad because they were in danger of being seperated because the little boy had HIV and the 2 girls didn't. Thankfully the US government is allowing parents to bring HIV positive children home to America where they can go on ARV drugs and potentially stop any risk of developing AIDS. So the siblings were allowed to stay together. So, who knows how long it will take, or when I can finally make it happen, but to my children who may read this later, I already love you and can't wait till I bring you home!

3 comments:

Little Blessings said...

I don't think you are crazy. I know someone who recently adopted from Ethiopia. He is an adorable little guy. Funny thing is that they were told the chance of them conceiving was low so they adopted and then got pregnant while in Africa picking him up. So now she has two little boys within 15 months of each other. Are you going to fully focus on adoption now or is there hope for another pregnancy as well?

Kelly and Jason said...

I mean simply that people may think I am crazy thinking about another kid already, not adopting, sorry for the confusion! When Will is 2 we will stop birth control again and see what happens. We did some treatments last time, but they are so depressing and all consuming, it ruins all romance. We will not do those again. We will just not use anything and start the adoption process and whatever happens, happens. When I am 35 or so Jason will get a little procedure so we won't have any more biological children, but we may keep adopting for a while, wherever life leads us.

Little Blessings said...

Very good! I was curious what you were going to be up to in the baby department due to the fact that I recall you saying you wanted lots of babies. I know that I always feel overwhelmed until the baby hits a year. Then I am slightly for another one and by the time they are two I am in full baby longing mode. I just need to figure out the proper time frame so that I am having a baby when the baby longing starts. Not starting to try then because 9 months is terribly long when you are dying for another one at home! Have fun with the adoption process. I think it is great that you want to do it.