Monday, August 11, 2014

A Day Out With Thomas...or Get the Heck Away From Me!

This was Charlie's reaction to seeing Thomas.  Not what we expected at all!  He reacted this way every time we went near the engine! 

He was much happier to go play in the sand and building areas...

Will loved the inflatables...

And he was willing to pose next to Thomas for a picture!

We thought buying Charlie some new train cars would cheer him up.  Alas, we were wrong.

Both kids loved the short trolley ride.  It was a cute car from the 1920's that ran in Minneapolis for a long time. 

We saw Thomas coming our way while we were on the trolley.  Charlie was unimpressed. 


Mommy and Charlie ridin' the rails...

This is as close to Sir Topham Hat as Charlie was willing to get...at least he is smiling though! 

Good bye Thomas.  We will not be seeing you again any time soon! 

A person's a person, no matter how small...


I didn't feel right.  I didn't feel sick.  I didn't feel as tired.  I asked for an ultrasound, just to be sure.  The moment I saw the screen, I knew.  No flickering little light.  My little gummy bear was no longer.  The pain has been deep.  Willliam is old enough to get it.  Thankfully, Charlie isn't.  I am so grateful that my marriage is strong, and all these trials just draw us closer.  Thank God for Jason.
All the plans that were changed now have to be changed back.  It's so depressing.  The equipment will be given away to someone who needs it.  I recycled the baby name book.  The crib isn't needed now.  The car seats don't have to be rearranged.  I won't be shopping for maternity clothes, or little tiny sleepers.  If Charlie ever gets potty trained, I can get rid of the diapers.  We aren't doing this again.  We have been talking about it together, and talking some more.  We have decided to stop.  We would have happily made all these changes for this baby.  But, with the two boys we have, and the life we desire, we have decided to be done.  We can always adopt later if we change our minds.  I have no desire to go through this again.  I don't do pregnancy well, and this experience just seems to prove it.  There are women who are lucky enough to breeze through, but I am not one of them.  Bedrest and these two boys don't mix, and with pre-eclampsia starting last time, I am at a higher risk with each one, so risking myself for a child who doesn't exist doesn't make sense.  I would have happily laid my life on the line for THIS child, but a future baby doesn't seem to be part of the great plan.  I have been blessed with the best of husbands, and I have two healthy, happy boys.  I have to be content with that.  As for my Angel Baby, I hope he is waiting in Heaven for me, and I will look forward to meeting him there....

Monday, July 7, 2014

What???!!!

6 weeks 3 days
I was feeling tired.  Really tired.  Like, sit down anywhere and fall asleep tired.  So I took a test because feeling that tired for me only means one thing.  And I was right.  I was pretty much stunned.  So was Jason. We have recovered now from the shock and are very excited to see what will certainly be the FINAL addition to our family.  Looking forward to doing it one more time....Love you already little one.

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Nashville...

It was a quick, packed weekend so the only touristy thing we had time for was the Hermitage...it was SO hot and muggy, we didn't stay long...

The Magnolia trees were GORGEOUS! 

My cousin Alicia got married on Saturday June 21st...

William and the Groom, Alex, looking very serious right before the big moment!

Charlie was a crazy little goofball the whole day...we eventually let the kids go back to the house we rented early...

Kokomo...

Kokomo Auto Museum- The boys loved being able to climb around in this Tin Lizzy!





Flying on the swing!

The cats kept disappearing into the garage through this window and this kids were dying to catch one...

William sat up in the crab apple tree and chucked little crab apples at anyone who came too close...
We are SO glad we added the days to stop and see Happy.  Suddenly, his age seems to be catching up to him, and it was so shocking to see him unable to do all the things we usually do.  I took the boys to the Kokomo Auto Museum with my Mom and we had a great time seeing all the classics in one place.  I got tenderloins for everyone at Ray's and then brought the kids to the hotel and took lunch back to Jason and Happy.  Happy said he hasn't been feeling like eating, but no one can resist a milkshake and a tenderloin and he ate it up!  Jason and Happy got lots of time together while I kept the boys occupied.  Happy and Marlene came to Bob Evans on the final morning so we could all have breakfast together before we hit the road.  It was really hard saying goodbye, but we will try and see him again this year if we can manage it....Aging sucks.

Fort Snelling...

William talks with a soldier...

Exploring...



Playing old fashioned children's games...this one is called "the game of graces"


Love this!  They look like two old guys in a general store! 

Charlie inspects his troops! 

Sunday, June 1, 2014

Summer...In No Particular Order...

Blogger is broken.  I don't know why, but here are a few
pics I managed to load over 2 hours of failing again and again.  Enjoy!  Hopefully I can update later.