Tuesday, July 10, 2007

So, last week I was feeling really crummy, and tired. My period never showed up, but that is so not unusual for me. I had a pregnancy test at home from a previous time so I figured Friday night that I would take it Saturday morning. Well, I did and lo and behold it was POSITIVE, and it came up positive right away. I couldn't believe it. I cried, sobbed, in fact since we have been trying for 5 years. I went out and told Jason and he cried, and we just sat there staring at that little peed on stick. I was so stunned I took two more. We are still stunned and very scared. We are both so afraid to get excited, so scared to love this idea, of something we have both wanted for so long to come to fruition. Tomorrow is the first Dr's appointment. I see the Perinatologist next week. I will need to have the HCG level tested every 3 days and possibly have to go on Progesterone to maintain this little miracle. I am so scared at this point that they will do the scan and the tests and find that it has disapeared. We told my Mom of course, but Jason wants to wait to tell his family until we are sure this will last. I am not telling the rest of my family yet. They have all wanted this for so long, I don't want to get everyone excited and then make eveyone sad. So, what a sad start to this little blog, but hopefully it will have a much happier ending.

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