The Best News Possible!

Well, everything went great today obviously! There is the little pollywog there. It has a heartrate of 147 beats a minute(perfect). It is 1/2 an inch long but already has little hand and leg buds. I am 7 weeks and 4 days so the due date is supposedly March 9th, 2008. Amazing. Molly and Jason both got to be there for the ultrasound and you could see the little heart beating away. Now I feel like I can truly relax a little bit and enjoy this. So next appointment is next Wednesday. They will do basic blood work and such. I will update then or sooner if anything happens. I expect prayers from all to support this little person, whether you believe in God or not you better pray to something!

Anticipation.....

Tomorrow is the big day. Finally! I hope that we see a heartbeat. Jason is excited and nervous, as am I. We told Solon and Andrea this weekend, and they were so happy for us. Alessandra was being her adorable self and cried when we had to go home. Gabriella is getting so big! She was really smiling at all of us. We all discussed the trials and tribulations of pregnancy, trying to get pregnant , and trying to stay pregnant. And after all that emotional stress, you look at the girls and it is somehow all worth it. More tomorrow.....

New Challenges

So, now I am pregnant, but can I stay that way? I went to the OBGYN on Monday and they drew the HCG and Progesterone. The HCG was up to 9,829 from 4,485 from last Thursday, so that is a good increase. However, the progesterone was 1/2 of the minimum. Only 7.5 and it should be over 15. So now I have to lay on my back with my hips elevated twice a day exactly 12 hours apart with progesterone on my cervix for half an hour. AND it costs 147 dollars a month! Crazy! But if we end up with a healthy baby it will be all worth it. I am approx. 6 weeks now so they should be able to see a heartbeat next week on the ultrasound. If there isn't one there I think I will be devastated. Mom cried just at the thought of a miscarriage. I feel like I will let my family down as well as myself if this pregnancy doesn't make it.

So, last week I was feeling really crummy, and tired. My period never showed up, but that is so not unusual for me. I had a pregnancy test at home from a previous time so I figured Friday night that I would take it Saturday morning. Well, I did and lo and behold it was POSITIVE, and it came up positive right away. I couldn't believe it. I cried, sobbed, in fact since we have been trying for 5 years. I went out and told Jason and he cried, and we just sat there staring at that little peed on stick. I was so stunned I took two more. We are still stunned and very scared. We are both so afraid to get excited, so scared to love this idea, of something we have both wanted for so long to come to fruition. Tomorrow is the first Dr's appointment. I see the Perinatologist next week. I will need to have the HCG level tested every 3 days and possibly have to go on Progesterone to maintain this little miracle. I am so scared at this point that they will do the scan and the tests and find that it has disapeared. We told my Mom of course, but Jason wants to wait to tell his family until we are sure this will last. I am not telling the rest of my family yet. They have all wanted this for so long, I don't want to get everyone excited and then make eveyone sad. So, what a sad start to this little blog, but hopefully it will have a much happier ending.